Consumption Turns Me Into Someone Else

When I consume other peoples creations I feel competitive and inadequate. Wanting to prove that I too, am capable. This approach blinds me from my true self, as I give in to the shiny allure of greener grass.

It’s only after I stop consuming and give myself a break from outside influence, that I can suffering through the quiet of my own thoughts and get a glimpse of who I am. Sometimes the process is so uncomfortable that I retreat to the comfort of outside opinion. Releasing myself from the duty of making decisions, and turning my head from my good, bad, and ugly.

There’s no way I am exempt from consuming. Any good idea I’ve ever had has been because of information I have consumed. Taking the ideas of others and adapting them to my own circumstances is a method that works. The trick is giving myself the time it takes for ideation, adaptation, development, and implementation.